Thursday, May 18, 2006

musing…

the further i follow jesus down this road of discipleship the more i realize it is the subtle epiphanies and reconciled relationships that keep me going. it’s not that ecstatic experiences of God’s presence or those moments where i’ve been surprised by his providence are unimportant. i’ve received a vision or two that required an immediate response and on at least one occasion the precariously stacked consequences of my shitty decisions literally compelled a conversion. but although those experiences set me free to wander in this wilderness they have not been my bread for the journey. rather, the latter has been provided by bitter enemies who have become my beloved, stumbling back into practices that probably wouldn’t “preach,” but sustain my soul and even the unexpected smile of a stranger on the street.

i realize that God can manifest himself in miraculous ways and am not indifferent to the major movements of the Spirit. but today i give thanks for the subtle and simple things that help me keep on keepin’ on.

3 comments:

Kellie said...

This post reminds me of the last lines in a Gerard Manly Hopkins poem that Rhys used at church. I keep it printed on my desk.

As kingfishers catch fire, dragonflies draw flame;
As tumbled over rim in roundy
wells
Stone ring; like each tucked
string tells, each hung bell's
Bow swung finds tongue to fling out broad its name;
Each mortal thing does one thing and the same:
Deals out that being indoors
each one dwells;
Selves - goes itself; "myself"
it speaks and spells,
Crying "What I do is me: for that I came".

I say more: the just man justices;
Keeps grace: that keeps all his
goings graces;
Acts in God's eye what in God's eye he is -
Christ. For Christ plays in
ten thousand places,
Lovely in limbs, and lovely in eyes not his
To the Father throught the
features of men's faces.

ahbahsean said...

Can I just say that you sound more "gentry-like" as of late?
:) I like it.

junkyardlove said...

Yes, yes. A thousand times yes, Jeff.