an advent prayer

i want you more than a cigarette
      but can't toss this pack quite yet
i don't want to trade the physical
      for the ethereal

so come ye closer
      than the smoke that's in my lungs
calm my shaky fingers
      be the heat upon my tongue

i want to act justly, love mercy, walk in humility
      but abstractions just don't do it for me.

      please come closer.